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Again, she failed emotionally. She  considers herself an emotionally strong person but when it comes to apply practically she fucks up.  Why does she always run for the attachments maybe even fake? She is  that kind of person who get difficulty getting  far once was closed. Simply, she can’t even change the restaurant to eat thinking she is the regular customer there and  what restaurant owner thinks if she goes to next one. She tries to become emotionally available to everyone whenever they need but they come, blame her and leave. She always find herself wrong. She thinks maybe she has the problem, maybe she is problematic but in fact the opposite is.  She lives the delusion of friendship although they clear themselves that they aren’t the person who really deserves her. She tries to keep her promises even after the end of relationship but the other side opposite. She can’t fake her behavior. What people see her from outside is same inside of her  but...

 Life is so uncertain, we don’t know what will happen in which moment. The most unpredictable things in life is the life itself. Every one of us knows that death is fixed but it is still so unpredictable.  Today me along with my friends went for swimming. The sun was bright, we were looking pretty, we were having fun. It was a beautiful day. But, I got  drowned and had a thought that moment was the  last moment of this life.  For background information I know nothing about swimming. If you even drop me in 2 ft height of water I may die. I was sliding from the height on tube. I was having fun, the flow of water and the unpredictable way of slide was so beautifully designed that I was appreciating it. Suddenly we reached the end of slide and splash. Our tube turned over, my friend was under the tube and we both got drowned. The only thing that was going on my mind that time was people will come to save me so, I was giving the signal to them by waving my hand. I wa...

After so long I am sitting down to write something but my mind got blank actually not blank the only thing that is in my mind is yesterday. It was a bad day for me. Actually it wasn’t a bad day but was just a normal day. Our class starts at 9 am and guess what I woke up at 8:30 am. I opened my eyes at 7:30 am and and while turning pages of my book I slept again. So the beginning of my day wasn’t as I planned. After getting down from the bed at 8:30 I freshen up and washed my cup. After boiling water I was about the pour the water in my cup but my shaked and the cup striked to wall and it had a crack. I thought this crack won’t affect the cup and pour the water but it leaked. My cup died for me. Although, it wasn’t my favorite my cup but I had sent more than half and a year with that cup. I felt bad but my emotion got suppressed because I was late to class. I got ready for the class and went hurriedly. But, the teacher 20 mins late. I was already so irritated and the class was ...

 Please calm down!  You will make it…. I know you are scared seeing people giving up their dreams, but you don’t loose hope even without trying. You haven’t even started your journey properly and are already tired ? You can’t be like this, I have known you for many years and you are the one who always work hard to achieve what you wanted. So, this time also I am confident that you will work hard and reach to your goal. I know it isn’t easy, I know you are terrified by seeing people giving up but I don’t want you to be one of them. Actually, you have to do it and make those regret for not trying. You don’t care about those you even didn’t try and cry for their dreams, you shouldn’t be compared with those because you are you not them.  See those who are trying for these long even without getting tired or frustrated. You can see many of them still working for it. I believe on you no matter what others it. You go for it I will always be in your background cheering for you and...

 This is my brother’s story:-   Once upon a time there used to live a potato(aalu) and tomato(tamatar) in a neighborhood. They were close friends, they used to study and play together. Although they were best friends, aalu was lazy, didn’t used to work hard unlike tamatar who used to study properly. Tamatar 🍅 used to study a lot, do his homework daily but aalu🥔 didn’t do that regularly. In last summer, they had exams, tamatar 🍅 did well in his exams but aalu 🥔 couldn’t do well in his exam. Yesterday was result day, tamatar 🍅 passed his exam with first position in class while aalu failed. Aalu’s father got angry with him and kicked him to the field.  On the other hand, tamatar’s father was so happy with him and congratulated him by touching his head and at the very moment tamatar got splashed.  Moral: Nothing, just to waste your time.. Spread love 🖤

 After my clinical posting had started, slowly I got to visit every department. I noticed there were almost around no female surgeons and only one female general physician but in other departments there were equal number of both male and female doctors.  I was confused why there are no any female surgeons, since then I started to observe. It’s not because surgery is so tough for female instead I observed females are equally capable or sometimes more than male. Me, being a medical student I didn’t feel my male friends are smarter or more hard working than us female. Then why no female surgeons in our hospital? This question  made me really curious to know the reason. But, today I think I got my answer to this question. Me along with my group was posted to surgery department. We were about 6 boys and 8 girls. See, the majority was female. We were taking history of a male patient with hydrocele. After history we were asked to do examination of  the patient but the patie...

 You can be anyone  But, you are mean  Self love is okay but self love destroying others is obviously not okay. You are mean and you don’t realize it now because even being mean you are getting whatever you want. You are getting her pure love, care, time everything easily because she really really loves you a lot. But, you forgot you have to love her too. You have think about her too you have to give efforts to make her happy too.  I know you are getting this love without even asking so u don’t know how it feels not to be loved.  You think the way you are feeling loved is effortless but it’s not. She has to make lots of efforts to make you feel how you feel everyday but you don’t realize it. So you  think without efforts she can be happy too. No bro! You are wrong. Treat her like a queen because every girls deserve it. Love her in the same way you used to love before she was even interested in you then you will never have to be sad.  She may not say yo...

                                 How Am I? When everyone is busy counting the stars in the sky, I am lost among the clouds. I get completely drowned in my own thoughts, When everyone is laughing out louds. When everyone is making new friends and meeting, I am stuck on self date. I love  to be busy in knitting  And setting up the plate. Yeah, I know I am different, But not weird. I love to isolate myself,  When many people appeared. I believe human is a social being, But, it’s not compulsory to be social. I love my own company, With my coffee and Nobel. You know not everyone get energy Talking to people, After socializing I cry and be dull. That doesn’t mean I love to be completely alone  I also want to be loved  Also want to be hugged   And have my problems solved. Spread love 🖤

 2022, what a year! Thank you 2022, you really taught me a lot. A lot more than expected. Showered with love and also flooded with the pain. Yeah, you made me experience a lot.  A lot was learned from you. Made me experience pain of Covid, pain of seeing my loved ones in pain. Learned more than last 10 years in a single year.  Taught me to love , to hate, to move on and to love again. Helped me to realize fake friends, taught me to deal with the friends. Made me realize me myself will be for myself.  Everything and everyone in my life is temporary so have to learn to be independent. But, still you met me with many wonderful people in the world . Blessed with love and support of beloved friends. Thank you everyone making my year special. Thank you 2022 Let’s welcome 2023 together  Spread love 🖤

I have no idea from where to start or to end to write. Same goes for my life, don’t know where it started, to which point it has reached and how will end.  Life was sorted when we were child, right? Fixed routine, perfect mental health, proper guidance in every step and there existed the reason for living. But now, everything is changed. I don’t know where I got lost on. I keep on searching myself. I don’t know what actually is going on my life. Everywhere I see the unanswered the questions and keep on asking myself those questions but they still remain unanswered. Never had imagined, adulthood was this difficult. Everything is like a maze, exact opposite of what I  had imagined. It may seem perfect for the people seeing me from outside but as the saying ‘you should walk on their shoes before you know their journey’ my journey is being little bit difficult for me. Sometimes, I feel I am lagged behind somewhere in the darkness searching for the light but still have no idea till...