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What if you didn’t get your dream college

  What if it's not St. Xavier's ? For many students in Nepal , getting into St. Xavier's after SEE feels like the ultimate goal. It's a dream we've all seen, and many work incredibly hard for the entrance exam . But what if you don't make it? First, take a deep breath. It's okay. Seriously — don't stress too much. Not getting into St. Xavier's does not mean the end of your dreams. There are so many other great colleges in Nepal that can shape you into just as capable, confident, and successful a person. Yes, St. Xavier's is a prestigious name. Its infrastructure, learning environment, and opportunities help students grow, explore, and excel. But here's the truth: other colleges offer the same syllabus , dedicated teachers, and extracurricular opportunities . What matters most is how much you are willing to make the most of what's given to you. I'm speaking from personal experience. St. Xavier's was my dream too. I didn...

Please stay strong

 Sometimes you think you are over a trauma , you think you have moved on , you think everything happening is for good, everything is solved, you are happy with how and what you are, you feel like you have overcome something, you feel like you achieved something  But, it’s actually not that easy. Although you feel like you moved on but sometimes, someday some moments  come to life when you are realize you still haven’t overcome your fear . You still feel bad about the situation, you still are sad about what happened. That realization hits so hard. The thing is the more you try to ignore some situations the more god place in that situation. I think god what’s you to face it and to overcome it rather than keeping in all in yourself and creating an unconscious trauma .  So please stay strong. Don’t let anyone or anything affect your physical or mental health . You may cry over someone or something today but tomorrow you will regret crying over them. God always has a bet...

Confession to yourself!

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  Sometimes you may think you won because you have people around you but that may not be true in every case.  Look at yourself and ask yourself are they really with you because you are good for each other or they are just sticking to you to prove they are good to themselves. If you have to surround yourself with people to think you are good then there will be big question mark about yourself? You know how you are and people should attract people by your personality not by faking around or binding up to show others. You may seem happy for a bit but this won’t last long. A house made up of suck weak and fake bricks won’t last long and will fall in such a way that may cause a huge loss.  Never own others with your fakeness or to prove yourself good enough to have friends among others. Having such a fake bond isn’t good for anyone. Instead just be alone if you don’t feel anyone truly deserves to be your friend. It’s scary to feel alone, be alone, to walk alone, to share thing...

Happy birthday Purnima

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 Happy Birthday bestie ♥️ I can’t describe in words about how our friendship is, it is really difficult to give the name of friendship or sisterhood.  Thank you so much for being there for me every time, for understanding me better than I do and for having faith on me. I am really thankful that you are my friend, my actual friend. You really helped me know what a friend means and how a friend can impact life. You really taught me the meaning of real friendship and I still search for the bond like you  with others which is almost impossible, I guess.   I guess, our friendship was unimaginable for both of us but it happened. I never thought I will be writing this for you when I was in class eleven but class 12 changed everything between us. The starting wasn’t interesting I guess, but that 1 year turned our life to such a beautiful bonding. On class 12, I remembered sharing desks and bitching about others but after that the whole 3 months was the golden period of ...

Restaurant ?

Again, she failed emotionally. She  considers herself an emotionally strong person but when it comes to apply practically she fucks up.  Why does she always run for the attachments maybe even fake? She is  that kind of person who get difficulty getting  far once was closed. Simply, she can’t even change the restaurant to eat thinking she is the regular customer there and  what restaurant owner thinks if she goes to next one. She tries to become emotionally available to everyone whenever they need but they come, blame her and leave. She always find herself wrong. She thinks maybe she has the problem, maybe she is problematic but in fact the opposite is.  She lives the delusion of friendship although they clear themselves that they aren’t the person who really deserves her. She tries to keep her promises even after the end of relationship but the other side opposite. She can’t fake her behavior. What people see her from outside is same inside of her  but...

I was saved

 Life is so uncertain, we don’t know what will happen in which moment. The most unpredictable things in life is the life itself. Every one of us knows that death is fixed but it is still so unpredictable.  Today me along with my friends went for swimming. The sun was bright, we were looking pretty, we were having fun. It was a beautiful day. But, I got  drowned and had a thought that moment was the  last moment of this life.  For background information I know nothing about swimming. If you even drop me in 2 ft height of water I may die. I was sliding from the height on tube. I was having fun, the flow of water and the unpredictable way of slide was so beautifully designed that I was appreciating it. Suddenly we reached the end of slide and splash. Our tube turned over, my friend was under the tube and we both got drowned. The only thing that was going on my mind that time was people will come to save me so, I was giving the signal to them by waving my hand. I wa...

My Yesterday

After so long I am sitting down to write something but my mind got blank actually not blank the only thing that is in my mind is yesterday. It was a bad day for me. Actually it wasn’t a bad day but was just a normal day. Our class starts at 9 am and guess what I woke up at 8:30 am. I opened my eyes at 7:30 am and and while turning pages of my book I slept again. So the beginning of my day wasn’t as I planned. After getting down from the bed at 8:30 I freshen up and washed my cup. After boiling water I was about the pour the water in my cup but my shaked and the cup striked to wall and it had a crack. I thought this crack won’t affect the cup and pour the water but it leaked. My cup died for me. Although, it wasn’t my favorite my cup but I had sent more than half and a year with that cup. I felt bad but my emotion got suppressed because I was late to class. I got ready for the class and went hurriedly. But, the teacher 20 mins late. I was already so irritated and the class was ...

You will make it ..

 Please calm down!  You will make it…. I know you are scared seeing people giving up their dreams, but you don’t loose hope even without trying. You haven’t even started your journey properly and are already tired ? You can’t be like this, I have known you for many years and you are the one who always work hard to achieve what you wanted. So, this time also I am confident that you will work hard and reach to your goal. I know it isn’t easy, I know you are terrified by seeing people giving up but I don’t want you to be one of them. Actually, you have to do it and make those regret for not trying. You don’t care about those you even didn’t try and cry for their dreams, you shouldn’t be compared with those because you are you not them.  See those who are trying for these long even without getting tired or frustrated. You can see many of them still working for it. I believe on you no matter what others it. You go for it I will always be in your background cheering for you and...

Aalu ra tamatar

 This is my brother’s story:-   Once upon a time there used to live a potato(aalu) and tomato(tamatar) in a neighborhood. They were close friends, they used to study and play together. Although they were best friends, aalu was lazy, didn’t used to work hard unlike tamatar who used to study properly. Tamatar 🍅 used to study a lot, do his homework daily but aalu🥔 didn’t do that regularly. In last summer, they had exams, tamatar 🍅 did well in his exams but aalu 🥔 couldn’t do well in his exam. Yesterday was result day, tamatar 🍅 passed his exam with first position in class while aalu failed. Aalu’s father got angry with him and kicked him to the field.  On the other hand, tamatar’s father was so happy with him and congratulated him by touching his head and at the very moment tamatar got splashed.  Moral: Nothing, just to waste your time.. Spread love 🖤

Whom to blame ?

 After my clinical posting had started, slowly I got to visit every department. I noticed there were almost around no female surgeons and only one female general physician but in other departments there were equal number of both male and female doctors.  I was confused why there are no any female surgeons, since then I started to observe. It’s not because surgery is so tough for female instead I observed females are equally capable or sometimes more than male. Me, being a medical student I didn’t feel my male friends are smarter or more hard working than us female. Then why no female surgeons in our hospital? This question  made me really curious to know the reason. But, today I think I got my answer to this question. Me along with my group was posted to surgery department. We were about 6 boys and 8 girls. See, the majority was female. We were taking history of a male patient with hydrocele. After history we were asked to do examination of  the patient but the patie...