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 Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......

I screamed so hard. I felt some part of something that is bothering me just left my body. Tears were flowing continuosly making me lighter and the sound of water flowing from the shower was making me calmer. I want to scream again and cry louder but was scared if someone would listen.

I don't know why I am crying but I m feeling like crying whole day and night sleeping in the bed. Actually I don't know what I am suffering from. I have everything I want. I am studying the same thing as I want. I have lots of Friends. My family support me alot. Everyone in my life cares me alot but I still feel I am incomplete. I have no value. I am making trouble to everyone I know. I want to skip my life and live somewhere else where none would know me, where my parents won't ask how is your study going, where relatives won't say why you aren't receiving the call, where my friends don't act fake asking what happened, where I don't need to worry about my study and where there won't be any so called love. 

I want break from this life, lost from everywhere for some days. I want to go to some secret place and cry and cry and cry until my tears empty up. I started hating everything I used to love before. I broke up with my boyfriend I don't what I did and even can't decide whether it was right or wrong.

    She cried saying all these and suddenly cut the call. She is my friend who called after a month and said all these. I had texted her before but she used to ignore my message I thought she was busy but I didn't know she was going through all these. I want to call her again to say everything will be alright but she didn't answer my call. I tried calling her a lot but I couldn't. After an hour I called her and she received she said she is feeling good saying me all these things. I told her not to worry about all these. I asked everything and she said me everything. I found her to be depressed. I am trying to chill her up. Hope she will improve soon.

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  1. Jitesh😃😃23 April 2021 at 23:49

    I think ur frnd have to ignore all there frnds who pretend to be her caretaker & enjoy this lockdown and will come fresh after lockdown. Hope ur frnd get well soon ☺️
    God bless yuh !!

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  2. Jitesh😃😃23 April 2021 at 23:52

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